Monday, September 29, 2008

Livin’ on a Prayer

August did not leave very well in my book. Fatigue and sickness crept back in that weekend but we were on a retreat the whole weekend for the Korean Legion of Mary group, and luckily it was only a small retreat, because I had to go to bed early the one night we were there – It was all catching up with me yet again!

Despite the rough month of August, I was determined to begin September on a good foot, although I’m afraid it just didn’t happen. It began with another Theology on Tap session (getting the schedule back on to the first Monday of the month), and with a few retreats scheduled, we worked hard on getting those together. We also had a WYD Thank You dinner put on by the Archdiocese for all the volunteers and long-term commitments people had made to the event – it was quite a lovely evening, actually, and I got to see quite a few people I hadn’t seen for a while. It was especially exciting because the Dominican Sisters from Nashville had returned to Sydney to set up their permanent convent here, and that night was the first chance I had to say hello to them.

The next day the team was given the day off, and I took the opportunity to get my hair trimmed at a cheap place in the city, and got to Mass at my favorite church, St. Benedict’s, on the campus of Notre Dame. Then I met with a friend on Sydney Uni’s campus to drive with her down to Goulburn – about 2 hours from Sydney – to attend a farewell dinner for a girl named Natalie Gordon. She has just recently made the trip across the “pond” to the US to join the Nashville Dominicans Order! She invited Monica and I to her home town to have dinner, and the Italian restaurant we ate at was excellent. It was a family owned and operated business, and in fact, the owner’s wife sat at the same table and Monica and I, and Sr. Mary Madeline and we had a lovely chat with her. All in all, it was a nice night, and I got to know Monica a bit better, as well as see yet another little corner of Oz! Goulburn doesn’t have much to see, so I don’t think I would go back – it’s sort of a one-horse lookin’ town. Quite interesting indeed.

The day after that, without much sleep, the team had to go to the Cathedral for a Mass and luncheon put on by Cardinal Pell for all the religious of Sydney. CYS was in charge of helping serve the food and drinks as well as helping set up and take down. Of course we were given lunch too, which was very nice. It was a good day of mingling anyway. I got called Sister a couple of times – I guess I looked like a nun that day?

But it was a rainy day, very wet and cold, and so afterwards I just curled up in bed and slept. I didn’t do much the next day either, except go to Mass and meet up with a few friends for dinner afterward. My weekends were really boring this whole term – I truly was just ‘livin’ on a prayer’…I just couldn’t wait for it all to be over! I think it was a combination of bad beginnings without adequate rest and terrible weather. I’m happy to say things have begun to look up quite a lot. We did finally get to meet our new director – he is very nice, and even though he’s pretty new, he will bring about some great changes to CYS…maybe some that the current team won’t ever see, but nonetheless, hope for a better future is here. He is very laid back as well, which is always a good thing!

I spent some time with the girls on team after that, which helped, and the next weekend had a girls day with the Dominican Sisters and a few friends at their convent – it’s always so nice to spend time with them (and their accent is easy on my ears, of course!). That weekend I caught up with a friend for Brunch after Mass, and we spent some time heavily discussing the city of Chicago – he knows the soft spot in my heart for that city, and so it was partly for that reason he decided that on his upcoming trip the States he would spend a few days there, checking out what all my hype is about! He left today - I hope it’s as good for him as I think it is!

The weeks lately have just been bringing about two retreats a piece…just cruising through them trying to get to the school holidays. A few nights I got to catch up with friends (a rare treat!), and one day the team was invited to come to Sydney for the launch of ChristWeek, a week long mission on campus, in which the chaplaincy comes alive and takes over certain places on campus, passing out materials and evangelizing students who will listen. There are talks every day as well, and the first one was given by Sr. Mary Madeline, so it was great to go and listen to her.
Just last weekend, I took a trip to the Blue Mountains to visit Jenelle, my pen pal, because it was her 21st birthday party! Of course it is always lovely to see her and I enjoy catching up with her family as well – they’re all just so nice! I stayed the night there and then came back down on the Sunday, and it was such a gorgeous day. It’s those days that I especially appreciate our location because the ocean water always looks so amazing.

The last week of team before the two-week school holidays was fairly quiet. We had a couple retreats, as per usual, but on Monday night, we had another mission team stay with us as they passed through Sydney. They were from a city about 5 hours inland called Orange, and I was convinced they would all be Australian, because I couldn’t conceive how any international missionary would choose to live in such a remote location, and YET, to my extreme surprise, they had not only a Canadian, but also an American from CHICAGO!!!! I couldn’t believe the coincidence – and of course, what do you think my first question to her was? “ARE YOU A CUBS FAN?!?!?!” Of course she is! We discussed how proud we were of the team this year – come on Cubbies!! I wish I could have talked to her more than just 15 minutes, because I think we would have had a lot in common, and could relate on a number of levels – that was apparent from just our brief exchange. It was a bit of excitement anyway.

I got to go to Sydney Uni again on Wednesday, this time to hear Bishop Anthony Fisher, OP, speak at ChristWeek (it’s always good to visit my old stomping ground!) and of course, the talk was excellent.

A team day on Friday, complete with the experience of Yum Cha (?!) and a trip to Manly Beach, and we were released to enjoy the next two weeks of a break. I am absolutely relishing this time off – time to relax, slow down, get things done (like this blog…) and have some Missy time. And the weather was incredible this weekend, so I got to hit the beach a bit, and spent the Sunday afternoon with the Dominican Sisters for another girl’s evening. They are having them every two weeks.

I don’t plan to do much for the next week or two but relax and enjoy life! Jovina gets back this week (HOORAY!!!!!) and this weekend a bunch of us girls are going out to a friend’s farm to relax and have a retreat. I know it sounds like I go on a lot of retreats, but it’s because I need them! I give so many retreats, I have to get a little something back in order to give more!
As I de-stress and wind down from a very turbulent term, I am preparing myself for the end of team and for my departure from Australia, which is now only 79 days away! So soon! Instead of wishing it away, I am trying to live it up – Lord only knows if I’ll ever be back in this beautiful, friendly place!

Hold out for a bit, I'll get some pictures up very shortly. That's next on my list of things to do this break. I'll post instructions on viewing them. It will be much easier than the last time I tried to post an album, I promise!

Hope all is well in the States - keep in touch when you all can!

Until I write again, may God bless you!

FAMILY?!

It would seem that God smiled on me at the end of the month of August as I was privileged to have visitors from my “neck of the woods” - more like my branch of the family tree. My Aunt and Uncle from Alaska came to Sydney to visit as the first destination of many around the country, and even though they had been to Sydney before, they liked it so much they wanted to visit again – and of course see their niece! The cool thing is I don’t ever get to see them normally, since Alaska is *quite* a distance from Indiana.

We had a lovely visit – I was given a day to go spend with them, and after meeting them at their city center hotel, we stopped by St. Mary’s Cathedral, where I gave them a tour complete with an imaginative painting of the WYD festivities surrounding it. From there we ventured to the Centre Point Tower where we had a look at the city from up high! Down we came and grabbed lunch on Darling Harbor (very American, we all ordered cheeseburgers!) and then spent the afternoon in the Aquarium, which was a treat for me – I had not gotten to see it yet! It’s quite good, actually, although I have to say one of their displays was a reconstruction of a section of the Great Barrier Reef, and the only thing it did for me was make me miss the many times I snorkeled up there for real. The Aquarium was just no match for the true thing.

As we left the aquarium, we were just in time for the evening Mass at the Cathedral, so I parted to attend Mass, and then re-joined Aunt Tara and Uncle John for dinner at a lovely Thai restaurant near their hotel (I LOVE Thai!). I left them that night with instructions for how to make their way to Clovelly, where the next night I was to cook them dinner.

They follow directions very well and just on time they came to the house, where I was so happy to be able to show somebody from home what I have been living this year! We had dinner, and Aunt Tara, ever thoughtful, had brought us some American chocolates, so we cracked those open – the boys weren’t going to waste any time!

I drove them back to their hotel (I know how much I enjoy NOT having to take public transportation in a foreign city) and as we left, I was unsure when I would see them again. God willing I will one day make a trip to Alaska to see where they live! But what a blessing to have that visit with them, and just me and them, half way around the world. Truly unique!

Keep pushing and…

With a new spirit and energy for life, we dove headfirst into the next two days of retreat preparation, ready for our first major retreat back from WYD, a 3-day overnight with year 10 girls. I quite enjoyed the retreat, but it was SO draining, I think only just now, a month and a half later, I am finally over its stress. I had quite a large role in the retreat, and with all of us still being a bit tired and out of it post-WYD, plus coming off a big trip the weekend before, it took its toll on all of us. I certainly got pretty burnt from it! And that’s where the troubles of the term began: at the beginning. Not a good place for issues to arise.

Just after that retreat was the wedding of Mary Issa, one of the beautiful women who works in the Sydney Uni Chapliancy (I have her to thank for much of my faith formation over the past year), and it was a beautiful wedding – her train was 18 feet long!

That Sunday ended up being a gorgeous day so a friend (Sarah…not the Sarah that stayed in Indy though) and I walked the Eastern Suburbs Coastal walk. It goes from Bondi Beach to Coogee Beach, passing a few other beaches along the way, one of them being Clovelly (where I live!). It’s a gorgeous walk, and the day was a marvelous one for it. It was good to get out and walk a bit of the stress off anyway.

The following week was complete with the Theology on Tap session given by Bishop Anthony Fisher, OP, the coordinator of WYD (he had a HEAVY job on his shoulders!), and a few retreats, along with some spiritual direction from the ever helpful Fr. Michael.

That Friday, I woke up feeling quite sick (there it is again, that WYD bug, popping up at “convenient” times!), but I had to fight the illness all day because that evening I was set to attend a Lebanese dinner dance (which appears nothing short of something like a formal high school prom for Catholic Maronites!). I had to go because a friend had bought me the ticket, and earlier in the year I hadn’t been able to go at another time when she had also had a few extra tickets. Not to mention a very good friend, Jason, was using this dinner dance as a farewell party – he has left for Lebanon to study in the Maronite seminary to be a priest! He will be there for 6 years…unless God provides me a trip to Lebanon, there is a real possibility I will never see him again! So sick or not, I was going to this dance. Besides, lots of water and some makeup always makes a girl feel better! Right?

Feel better…that was a relative term all night. I made it though, and I had quite a good time despite the fever and very sore throat. I learned how to dance the dabki, and witnessed the powerful Lebanese drums in action, as well as hear d lots of Arabic songs, saw a friend perform, and meet so many lovely Middle Eastern people! The food was wonderful, dancing was fun, and then, an absolute angel offered to give me a ride home at a time when I didn’t think I could actually hold off the illness anymore. He was so nice, because to take me home, he had to go something like 45 minutes out of the way! God bless him.

I collapsed into bed and stayed there pretty much until that Sunday, when I only got up long enough to go to Mass. I hoped that by allowing the virus or whatever it was to run its course it wouldn’t come back again later at another convenient time. So far so good!

An Unknown Adventure

What did we do the day after Rachel left? We drove to Melbourne for the weekend. It’s about 600 miles away, so not your typical weekend destination. Yet, the four of us girls: Sharon, myself, Cecilia, and Anna did it anyway. The boys flew down - they’re pansies. The reason for this convergence on Melbourne (which is located in the southeast corner of Australia, for those of you following along at home on the map) was a first profession of vows Mass being held for 3 Capuchin brothers who had just spent a year of formation in the States and had now returned to Australia to continue their studies in their homeland. Since the boys on team will be joining the Capuchins and will very likely be doing the same thing in a few years, it was nice to see the ceremony, but also nice to take a roadtrip and to see a new city! I had very much been wanting to go to Melbourne, and I was not disappointed!

We drove through the Thursday night (beginning of August), and I was the lucky one who got the 3AM –Melbourne shift behind the wheel. It can be a very lonely hour to be driving, I discovered! However, I found ways to entertain myself. The road we were on (the stick-straight Hume Highway, paved from Sydney to Melbourne with almost no deviation) was lined with eucalyptus trees and every now and then signs appeared with koalas on them, saying they were in the area for the next 25 km, or whatever. I was so determined to see a koala: I turned on the bright lights and instead of peering at the road, peered intently at the trees whizzing by – but to no avail. I still have not caught a glimpse of a wild koala, which I find unfortunate!

When we left Sydney, everyone was convinced we were leaving late, because we were in for a 12-hour drive and we needed to get to Melbourne at a decent time in the morning so we could take naps, etc. so a 9PM departure from the CYS house was just pushing it. I don’t know who took 12-hours to drive that road, but 9 hours later, at the early time of 6AM, these four girls pulled into Melbourne before the sun, and…weren’t really sure what to do. Anna’s cousins live there and were expecting us at 11AM to stay with them for the weekend. Seeing as they were being such hospitable hosts, putting up 3 girls they didn’t know and a distant cousin, we didn’t think waking them up to tell them we had arrived 5 hours ahead of schedule would be the best “Hi there and hello” we could offer. And yet, that is what Anna did – and her being the relative, we just went with it. However, her cousins were extremely nice and had reserved us a hotel room because they felt it was too cold for us to be sleeping on the floor of their spare bedroom. Of course we protested, but she was adamant about the arrangement, and so gratefully, we checked into the motel just down the street and slept for the better part of that day.

That night we finally roused from our slumber and headed into the city to meet up with the boys (who were sleeping for some reason as well! I know for a fact they didn’t drive through the night, so I don’t know why *they* were tired!) for dinner and a wander around the cosmopolitan city of Melbourne, checking out the riverside walk and even the Casino. It’s really very artsy, with some different-looking architecture and a definite sense of culture. Sassy but classy, I think I might quite like to live in Melbourne! Although maybe not - that’s creeping a little too close to Antarctica for me. It was cold there!

And there are some interesting characters roaming the streets: a man in a full space suit, complete with space shoes and a helmet, was standing on a box with heaps of little sound gadgets connected to him and the box he was standing on playing a “space tune” and ‘singing’ or something…it was very weird. But funny! My favorite part of watching him though was when an ambulance drove by with the siren on and this space man had a siren sound that he started playing as well! We were just laughing hysterically at that.

The next day we went to the Capuchin’s profession, which was really lovely, and around 1PM, without any real plans for the rest of the day, I began scheming. The one attraction I just couldn’t stand to leave Melbourne without seeing was the Great Ocean Road, a long highway along the southern coast of Australia which is supposed to be beautiful! Along that highway, there are some natural sights worth stopping at, and as far as I know, the most famous ones are the 12 Apostles – you’ve probably seen pictures of these formations without knowing what you were looking at! They are the result of erosion: they stand just a few hundred meters from the coast, and their tops are level with the cliffs they presumably were separated from ages ago. At one time, I hear there were 12 of them but since their discovery, it would seem they themselves have eroded and collapsed, so now there only stand 11, or fewer even.

I was determined to see them, because it is unforeseeable that I will ever get to that part of the world again, and so I got a few loose directions from one of the Capuchin priests, rounded up the girls and jumped in the car, headed on a 2 hour journey (according the GPS) down the Great Ocean Road. By the time we really got going it was about 2PM, and even though a few people had mentioned the length of this expedition, I stubbornly didn’t believe them. They said it would take 4 hours, naaaa…surely it wasn’t THAT far to see these rocks.

After an hour of driving towards the coast, we hit the Great Ocean Road and it was BEAUTIFUL! A gorgeous day for the drive – it had been raining off and on throughout the morning but the sun was shining and so guess what was popping up everywhere? Rainbows! They were over the water and so fabulous to see. Some of them were just sitting on the horizon, others were off in a field next to the highway, but all were spectacular! And the scenery is just gorgeous on this drive – I really enjoyed just winding around the coast line, driving the speed limit which afforded a gaze or two towards the sea every now and then. We passed through lots of little tourist towns along the way, and I was just so happy to be alive that day – it was truly magnificent!

But it would seem that even in all my stubbornness, the GPS was wrong and the others were right. When, at some random point in the road, TomTom said “You have reached your destination.” There were no Apostles in sight. Cecilia, who had been napping in the back, called a friend who confirmed the inconvenient truth of the matter: It *WAS* a 4-hour drive from Melbourne to the 12 Apostles!

I pause here to simply interject the fact that I don’t know many occasions when I have actually jumped in a car driving in a general direction headed for something that I just assume is a certain distance away and that signs will point me there. It was so exhilarating to live such a free and whirlwind sort of day! No plans, no real direction, no sense of time…or distance…Just enjoying the ride, eventually hoping to get to a destination.

And so, two hours into the drive, we stopped and had a decision to make. Do we keep driving, pushing on towards the 12 Apostles, or do we turn around because it’s getting late? I desperately wanted to keep going, fighting time and sunlight until we reached those rocks, but I did have two other people along with me and I had to consider them. So I was quite surprised when they both said, “Just keep going! We’re already half way there, and what else are we going to do? It would be disappointing to have driven so far only to turn around.” I was just in such a state of bliss – I felt a bit bad, because I was ignorant of the true distance to these rocks, but in some ways, I wondered if I had known, if we would have gone at all? Probably not, and so I was grateful we had all been happily in the dark, not really caring!

So on we drove, and as the sun sank, along with our spirits (just a bit), we hit a drizzly, dark rainforest with windy roads – the kind where you can’t see around the bend and the speed limit, for that reason, is only 20mph. Because it was dark and slick, I was not taking any chances going faster than the recommended speed – not that I really could anyway! The curves were really tight. However, at one point along the journey, there were a few cars behind me, one of which was so impatient – I couldn’t even see his headlights he was riding my tail so closely! I suppose he finally decided he had enough, because on one of the curves he overtook us, but was quickly rebuked for this because his tires lost grip and he smashed into the guardrail – thank God there was a guardrail! It was a couple teenage boys…who knows what they were in such a hurry for, on such a dangerous road! We pulled up along side them, asking if they needed anything, and we got a very cold no, so praying for them, we drove on. I hope they learned their lesson not to be such idiots – at least no one was hurt.

A bit shaken, we pressed on further, and finally emerging from the rainforest to most darkness, we drove and drove till we reached the 12 Apostles. So it was dark, but the rain ceased long enough we could get out and walk down towards the lookout. The tourist center was closed and deserted, and only one other car was in the parking lot. We were actually a bit scared to walk through the dark to get out to the lookout, but luckily once we got past a certain patch of darkness there was a lit pathway (how nice of those people to install those!) and so down we trekked to see…the silhouettes of the 12 Apostles. At the time I was very positive, and actually very happy about the whole situation, saying how nice it was to see them in the dark, because almost nobody would ever get to do that, and how it was like a pilgrimage and we had really accomplished something in driving all that way, and that even though we couldn’t *really* see the natural wonder, everything had played out just how God had intended it and we were very blessed. I still believe all of that, but I can’t help wish we could have seen them in the daytime. If that was the case, I would still be able to see them in my memory! Because of the nature of the situation, for some time after our little trip down the Great Ocean Road, I had to remind myself that it actually happened – it felt something like a dream!

It was all very exciting though, despite the lack of visibility. It’s ok, I kept saying, we can look at pictures of them in the light – you can’t ever see them but in person in the dark! And so, that’s how our unknown adventure came about. And yes, we did then have a 4-hour drive back to Melbourne. In the dark completely.

The next morning, we got up, went to Mass at the Cathedral, grabbed some lunch, and headed back home – to Sydney. All in all, we decided we were a little bit crazy for driving over 2000km (1300 miles) in 3 days, but it was so worth it. I was so excited to be able to do it! An adventure I will remember for the rest of my life.

The More that was In Store.

You may, of course, wonder how it was I woke up feeling so sick on the morning of WYD, but still managed not to get completely sick the next week. I wondered the same thing myself. However, in hindsight it would seem that my body was holding out for a more “convenient” time – like team debrief. For 5 days and 4 nights, the team ‘retreated’ to a lakehouse on the central coast of NSW, to place called Avoca (I’d been there twice before during out last holidays – once for the reptile park and another for a retreat with the Dominicans). It was a lovely house – comfortable, relaxing, beautifully located – but it was cold. And I felt ill most of the time. And it was stressful, quite honestly. This was a time for the team to air out any “concerns” from the past 6 months, and to state opinions on how to move forward. As you can imagine, both very good and very bad things came out of this time away.

One nice thing was a day trip to Hunter Valley, New South Wales’ prime spot for wineries. I had never been in a winery, no less 6 in one day, so it was quite the experience – it was all so rich! However, this was the day I was feeling the most sick of all, and since I have made a personal commitment not to drink this year, even though I figured it would probably help the pain, I didn’t take a sip of alcohol. Which made my tagging along a bit silly. However, I actually did enjoy just wandering around the wineries, looking at all the different things they had to sell other than bottles of wine, and even studying their method of displaying those prized wine bottles. My efforts were not in vain though because our last stop was a very delicious chocolate store! That was more up my alley.

After this day away from a few days away, we closed the debrief on a fairly positive note and made our way back to Sydney to prepare for Rachel’s farewell party – she was leaving the next Wednesday! However, I was quite sad because at the same time, I also had to say farewell to my dear friend Jovina – she was setting off for Spain on a once-in-a-lifetime pilgrimage to Santiago de Compostela – the place of the body of St. James. She was flying to London to see her sister, then along with another friend, traveling to Lourdes in France to begin an 850km walk across the top of Spain, following which she would go to Fatima and then back to London before coming home to Sydney. Length of trip: 2 months. AH! Jovina, who I spoke with or messaged nearly every day, who I saw at least once a week if not more, who I just love so much: GONE for two months!? As I write this, those two months are finally drawing to a close, and I am so thankful – they were definitely the hardest two months of the year thus far! (not *just* because Jovi was gone but I think it had an effect!) It’s ok though because we stayed united in prayer.

So we had Cecilia’s 25th birthday party (/my staying party….riiiight.) and then on Rachel’s last night in Sydney, we drove around the Olympic Park (she hadn’t gotten to see it her whole time in the city!) and took crazy pictures…I guess that’s the best you can offer when you’re on a mission team! The next night, we made it a girl’s event to take Rachel to the airport and spent the time until she boarded with her, just sharing some last laughs and a cup of Starbucks tea. And then she left.

And we left the airport, and carried on with life. Strange, really.

Now what?

So WYD was over. And I had a week off, but what to do? I felt like it all came to a screeching halt, and the pilgrims scattered and so did the team, and suddenly the world, which had been spinning faster than I could keep up stopped. And there was time to calm down, chill out, catch up – with friends and on sleep – and it was all just a bit sad. The big event, one that many in Sydney had been preparing for for 3 years, had come and gone, and for the better part of a year I had been swept along as well, and it was so surreal to think that suddenly: that was all.

I had a shred of hope when I woke up Monday morning because we were making our way into the city one last time for an audience with the Pope. Sounds pretty exciting, but it actually disappointed me a bit. We got there a bit later than we should have, and after some security complications, we finally got into the area where about 3 or 4 thousand WYD volunteers had also gathered for the same audience. I was towards the back of the group, so I couldn’t see the stage too well, but that’s ok! The Pope drove around the back on his way up to the stage, so his Popemobile passed pretty close to where I was standing – but you know what happened? When I looked up to catch a glimpse of our Holy Father, all I caught was the sun in my eye! I was blinded and couldn’t see anything! However, my thought is that one day I will be able to see the Holy Father, minus blinding sunlight. Maybe I’ll get to go to the Vatican someday!

That Monday, the task of sorting out my visa once again came to the forefront as I realized I only had two and a half weeks until a plane was set to depart with me on it (unless, of course, I changed my ticket), and so that didn’t give us much time to figure things out! In fact, our director came over that day and explained that things were not looking promising, and it was very likely I would have to go home prematurely. In a frenzy, I spent the next week preparing for departure, as it was looking all too imminent! I was so upset. However, during that time I had off, I came to be ok with the concept, and in fact, at one point, was even looking forward to going home so soon, but obviously God had other plans.

In the meantime, I tried to enjoy my much earned “break”. I would call it more of a recovery period. I saw “The Dark Knight” Batman movie with friends, attended a farewell dinner for two Dominican brothers who had been in Sydney for some time, spoke with friends and family from home, attended a post-WYD French “catechesis” session with a friend, and caught up with a few more friends for Mass and a hot chocolate. In between all this I just tried to relax at home, catching extra sleep and watching a movie or two. On the Friday after WYD they had an “Adios” party at one of the houses where WYD long-term volunteers from overseas and interstate had lived – most of them left shortly after that, so it was one of the last nights the whole group was together. The next day I spent some time with Alana, the girl from Texas, and funny enough, as we were romping through the city we ran into several friends at different points! I don’t think anyone knew what to do with themselves. “You mean we have free time?!” We went through the WYD merchandise store (lots of sales!), had some lunch/dinner, went to Mass and then went on a drive to pick up Rachel from the airport – she had been in Melbourne.

And with that, everyone started making their way back to normal life. The team came back together and come Monday, we had another retreat. It was a bit random, just one week after WYD ended. However, Rachel and I thought it was our last retreat (still no word on the visa at this point!) so there was a big to-do about that at the end of the whole thing…I couldn’t really care less! At that point I was so tired and over it, I just needed even more of a break! Recovery didn’t come soon enough.

However, we got after the retreat that progress had been made with immigration and if I would just fill out a few forms, I could be assured an extension would be granted and no departure would have to be made after all. Of course by this stage, that wasn’t quite the news I was hoping for – it’s funny how quickly my attitude had turned around! A meeting later, the forms were in and a few days after that a bridging visa was granted. It was cause for celebration, but I had (just in case) already organized a farewell party! I changed the date and title so it morphed into a “staying party”, which I had in conjunction with Cecilia’s 25th birthday party – I felt a bit silly that all these messages had been sent out for a farewell, but all are friends and so understanding. I told them not to worry though, we would reschedule the farewell for sometime in December!
It would seem that more was still in store this side of the equator…

WORLD YOUTH DAY: SUNDAY, JULY 20, 2008

In the cold crazy air of Sydney that holy night of WYD, I got more sleep than I had gotten the rest of the week combined. Amazing! Yet, somehow, I woke up feeling like I would never be warm again and like I would never be well again - I felt awful! Funny: as I opened my eyes at around 6AM, happy to see that it was the light of day and not the light of the screen blinding me, I focused on that screen reading, “If you feel ill, please find a FIRST AID tent.” As I laid there, feeling feverish and achy, I thought it was a sign from God. However, I hardly had the strength to get up, let alone try to find some tent in the endless maze of Randwick Racecourse! Instead, I ate an orange, knowing Vitamin C couldn’t hurt!

After a while I finally got up, packed up, and made my way over to the VIP section one last time for the Final Mass. Cecilia came with me this time, and we once again braved the toilets and then ate some more breakfast with enough time for the one-hour fast before Mass. Now after I had disgraced myself falling asleep throughout most of the Vigil, I was very intent on staying awake and fully alert during the Mass, but would you like to know what actually happened? I missed most of it. I could not keep my sick weary eyes open! Right after Pope Benedict’s homily, I got up with Cecilia to walk around a bit (I think she may have been falling asleep too) and just as I took one step I tripped and fell! Not a good sign…

I was just so disappointed that I was there but missing WYD! However, my thoughts were that maybe God had already spoken to me throughout the rest of the week and my body couldn’t take anymore! I don’t know…

After the Mass Cecilia and I went to lunch with many of the Dominican Sisters from Nashville, and then made our way home.

I took a shower, and tried to eat some real food, and a little later I went into the city and met up with Jovi - we were going to have dinner with lots of friends, but it ended up just being us two and her boyfriend! We did have some good ice cream, but I think the general feeling was that of a deflated balloon - they look great at the party, but once the air goes out, what do you do with it? Fatigue was fast taking over, so we called it a night, and once more, I laid down, asleep before my head hit the pillow.

And that was it. WYD was over.